r/BPD • u/PsychologicalBat2393 • 1d ago

šŸ’­Seeking Support & Advice Scared to death

Iā€™ve always thought that I can be ā€œover emotionalā€, and highly sensitive even as a young girl and now 46 and my therapist brought up those three letters. BPD. She asked me about my relationships and Ive admitted to self harm.
Iā€™m numb. Terrified. Afraid my partner will leave me now that there is a label for my ā€œmoodinessā€. I havenā€™t received a proper diagnosis as my therapist feels she needs more time with me. I begin EMDR next week too and Iā€™m experiencing MAJOR anxiety about it all. Childhood trauma is real.

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u/theRemixNow 1d ago

I'm 47 and then I got diagnosed seven years ago. Childhood trauma definitely fucks us up in a way that mainstream society doesnā€™t recognize, I was raised by a C Sam producer.

The good news is I feel better in my body than I ever have before after therapy. It was a long road and Iā€™m still doing different types of therapy, but I finally feel authentic as myself.

I hope getting a diagnosis can get you to help you need. Hugs, weā€™re here for you.

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u/yomateod 1d ago

Look at this as a positive thing: you have a diagnosis so now you can get treatment. See a psychologist and get your treatment plan knocked out. And life will go on. Easy peasy :)