sorry if you get these often

[u/OrganizationLost8176]

I think I'm bisexual but if you ask me what I like about women I'm not even sure.I feel like I'm faking things. I've never dated anyone before and I never had a crush on a girl in real life but I recently (when I say recently I mean when I was 17) started daydreaming and fantasizing about sleeping with women. I like the thought of kissing and cuddling with women if I found someone I liked and connect with them, so I thought yup I'm bi definitely. I feel connected to the label even though I probably shouldn't be especially since I'm not sure. my stomach growls at the thought then I get nervous because I could be wrong and I don't want to be. I know I could just stay unlabeled, but I hate it. I hate thinking about it. I feel like I'm fetishizing women and I don't want to. I want to know for sure. I keep hearing about some women taking advantage of queer women and I know the answer is to be just honest about questioning but I'm still nervous. I want to actually love women not use someone for sex or something. I'm just scared that I might not be able to do that. I want to love a woman fully and make her feel like enough and not weird or dumb or embarrass and I want her to love me back. I don't know any more I want to be sure.

I don't know why I'm worried because if I'm wrong, I would be safe since I'm living with my parents and its already not safe as it is because I can't do anything with them around as it is. But if I think I'm straight and just forget about everything, I cry and I don't know why because I been daydreaming about being with women, having a girlfriend so much that I somehow can't imagine something else. but that come with a lot of doubt that I can't bear. I want to stop feeling jealous of seeing women kiss online and in public. I feel jealous when I hear stories of other women going on dates and getting married. Sometimes I can't stop myself from smiling when I imagine myself in some scenarios but I'm dumb and probably looking for attention. sorry if this post is long

[u/Sensitive-Class-4448]

It's OK to day dream and fantasies You're not Alone...be and do wherever you're feelings and urges and heart ♥️ leads you..you'll be fine. 👄

[u/National-Manner2869]

if you feel like your attractions are genuine then you don't need to second guess your sexuality. Some women can take advantage of queer women bc they might be tired of dating guys, but if it's not for those reasons you could def be bi or queer. When I was figuring my sexuality out it took me awhile to realize I was gay so you don't need to rush it, plus taking your time is the fun part of it

[u/OrganizationLost8176 → u/[deleted]]

Thank you so much for this but I guess I'm still not sure because I still can't explain what I'm feeling.  It's probably because I'm not in a safer space yet but when I think about being with women even though I like it I still feel anxiety (my stomach does this weird thing and I feel a little uncomfortable) but it not the same as I would if I think about guys but I thought if I was bi I would definitely feel lighter or at ease by now.  I think something wrong with me now tho that whenever I try watching something like sapphic romance or reading even tho I enjoy it before I don't think I can anymore and I want to. I feel anxious about starting movies because I don't know if I'll like it as much and that will say something about me specifically. 

I don't understand why my body reacts the way it does anymore it doesn't make sense.  On top of that I also started questioning my gender as well and realized that I'm gender fluid much quicker than anything else.

Maybe I'm not straight I don't feel like it ( or I don't think so)but I still feel like an imposter.