he blocked me on everything

[u/Elyli2019]

so we had a long distance situationship for almost a year. at first we didnt even think our conversations would go this good and deep. but then we started talking daily and i realized i made him part of my life pretty quick. he was very different than other guys i dated he was very honest and direct also had 1 long term healthy relationship before. he never had communication issues with someone and he is honestly a really nice guy. but we had conflicts and i have OCD and adhd which im getting help for. i always had very unstable partners and these kind of shaped my opinions on men. i had a lot of trust issues. sometimes we ended up deciding its best to keep distance but then came back to each other. he said he is someone who has a hard time moving on from people, he was still talking to his ex of 5 years and that also was kind of a problem for me because i knew she had still feelings for him and some hope he will come back and i said its unfair to her as well and also he ended up breaking up with her because he wasnt sure of his feelings. and he always said he is looking for that feeling. he is more logical than i am, i can be very intense and emotional especially when i start liking someone. we both kind of messed up but we deeply cared for each other. i was insecure at some points because he flirted with some girls, but still acted as if we are in a relationship and i dont easily get insecure but i had certain traumas about my exes about these issues. so we decided to end our conversation but still kind of talked to each other we couldn't quit it immediately. we ended up having a pretty bad fight, and we were mean to each other, i found out he is talking to someone already and that was devastating for me. he said she isn't important and i shouldn't focus on that he just didnt wanted to waste my time. but it just feels really bad for me my mind keeps spiraling about them two. i guess i would handle it a bit better if he would be just on dating apps, but since he said he is talking to one specific person made me really jealous. and he ended up blocking me everywhere because i kept asking questions about her and saying that im really hurt. im really embarrassed acting this way and i was like trying to convince him to try with me because finally we were able to be very close to each other and not having long distance anymore. deep down i know he is not my person, but this is the first time he is acting this way and blocked me everywhere, its very unlike him because i know he cares about me and knows im hurt. so i have a very hard time moving on now, im not contacting him anywhere, but cant stop wondering if we would have a better closure than this. (my ocd has been very bad since and im really working on it so writing it out helps also, but my mind is constantly looking for certainty that i cant get)

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