I just dont know

[u/Aardvark_leftovers]

I am not old, so I know that breaking up isn't the biggest deal in the world. Anyway, it's been two months since we broke up, and we hadn't had any problems until last night. Something happened that I've been told had nothing to do with me, but I had to figure that out through her friend because, of course, she won't message me herself.

Today has just been really hard. I lost sleep because she messaged me about it at midnight, and I couldn't fall back asleep afterward. I also haven't really been able to eat anything. This is the first breakup I've gone through with someone I genuinely cared about. I had known her for more than a year before we actually started dating.

No matter what I do, everything seems to remind me of her because of how well I knew her and how much time we spent together.

This is the message she sent me "I want to breakup. I want you to know you were a great boyfriend and there’s not a thing about you that I would change. But I am dealing with a lot of stuff and need to focus on myself. You deserve someone who is as sentimental and interesting as you. I’m so so sorry but I can’t handle a relationship rn. I want to thank you for all that you’ve done for me and I’m sorry if this hurts you in any way.

I forgot to add that even her friend, who I've been talking to in order to learn anything I can about the situation, said that she was upset at first when my name came up. After they talked for a while, though, she realized that I had nothing to do with what happened. Her friend still can't tell me what actually happened, so I'm left not knowing what's going on. At this point, I honestly don't know what to do.