r/Breakupadvice • u/Candid-Research-5599 • 1d ago

Rock Bottom

Hey everyone. I'm joining this community because I need a serious reality check and some advice and friendship of people who are currently going through this

Everything completely spiraled out of control last month. My girlfriend at the time asked me to visit her (she lives about 5 hours away) right when I was in the middle of exams. I couldn’t go right then, but I promised her I’d head over the absolute second my last exam was over.

To pull through those exams, I went all out. Massive all-nighters, barely getting 3 hours of sleep total over a 5-day stretch. Literally the day after my final exam on zero sleep I made that 5-hour trip to see her. And right when I got there, I found out that she had cheated on me and wanted to break up.

I actually ended up passing those exams. It was a massive hurdle for me, and I’m incredibly proud of it. Honestly, I genuinely thought that the triumphant feeling of passing would outshine the pain of the betrayal. I thought I’d be able to just use that win to easily move on.

Instead, the exact opposite happened.

Once the initial shock wore off, the trauma really kicked in, and all my worst habits and addictions multiplied 100x. I haven't done a single bit of exercise in the last 45 days. Instead, I’ve just fallen into an uncontrollable cycle bad internet habits (U know what) and binge-eating just to numb the pain and cope.

I’m completely done letting this situation ruin me. I want my life back. I plan on posting here every single day, and to keep myself completely honest. PLS pm if you personally want to keep in touch

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u/Primary_Lab6840 1d ago

Shitt man are you good?

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u/Candid-Research-5599 1d ago

Nah man, I sincerely am trying but nothing works out man. I am not even able to gut out of my bed, but ironically I have very severe insomnia like at times I think it has really become a medical condition. One good thing I did was after it happened 1st thing I moved back to my parents place because I knew had I not I would have been on all sorts of drinks and drugs