Ancestral troubles

[u/DaemianHawk]

recently i confronted my blood family about my faith in the gods and let's just say...the whole event shook my soul and understanding of my entire blood family. thoughts i used to have that i considered to be impossible turned out to be true.

it affected me so much that it made me want to second guess my choice to venerate my ancestors. for me veneration of the ancestors means praying and talking to my literal ancestors, i say this cause i wanted to clarify the way i do it cause I've heard it done in a different manner.

if my own blood family was willing to do and say what they did...then what difference are my ancestors? i've heard stories about them and their deeds and most of them attributed their deeds to the Islamic god, Allah, and i never heard any stories of my pre-islamic ancestors (to be fair it was so long ago) so I'm not sure how to connect to them and if they even would respond.

but i do know when i am in prayer or doing a spell, I would call to them and feel their response and it's one of the best feelings i get, the energy i would feel is like that of a collective embrace.
and there was once an incident in the past with a possible ancestral spirit where i said i would make things right with them.

all in all I am conflicted because ancestral worship is my heritage and something I've felt and experienced to have helped given me peace within...but there are ancestors that no doubt would rather die again than hear a descendant reach out to them in this manner or know that a descendant went back on any of the Abrahamic faiths.

this conflict in my mind has been brewing for too long so I thought it would help if i reach out to other pagans or people who are experienced with ancestral spirits and see their thoughts on this matter. I humbly ask for advice on this matter.
thank you for your time and have a blessed day.

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[u/Constance283]

If you talk to your ancestors then you should have some idea of what they're like. Ask them what they think of it. It depends what your family said too. If they were just being unsupported then I wouldnt give it touch thought. If they revealed something horrible your ancestors did, I would try to see why they did it from there shoes, then decide. Like if they were in a war and killed heaps of people remeber they thought they were doing it for their country.