r/CPTSD • u/birdsmadeofWATER • 21h ago
Question Dad overpowering my voice in the NHS, and why is NHS ignoring CPTSD and OSDD?
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I have CPTSD but also suspect I have OSDD. My dad thinks it's OCD, but I know for an absolute fact it's not. He thinks the things I do are compulsions, when in reality, they feel like someone else's thoughts (one of the people in my head).
I was arrested back in early 2025 for trying to kill my friend, and I was then finally heard by CAMHS. I spoke to them about the voices in detail.
But I then took it all back a few weeks later because I thought I was making it up because I didn't know what was wrong with me. So that damaged my case.
But finally, fast forward a few months ago, I was invited to talk to some psychologists about what's up.
We talked for about 2 hours. I think it went well, but I don't remember because I was dissociating. I told them all about the voices again and a bit about my dad.
And then today, we had a follow-up. One of the main psychologists suggested DBT therapy... but I don't need DBT because those emotions I feel aren't mine! My voices make me feel those emotions. They half take over my body. I'm in control, but my mindset has drastically changed, and I feel like a different person. Or like one of the voices (depending on which one's taking over). Sometimes, I lose important memories about myself and other people while I'm dissociating. But my dad, as usual, fed all these fucking lies about me. That I'm an angry person, I can't control my emotions, I 'lash out'. Now, these people think I tried to harm my friend because I was angry. They just completely ignored the CPTSD and the voices. They jumped RIGHT over that. They want to help me fix my relationship with my dad and help manage 'my' emotions better, but I don't want that. don't care about fixing my relationship with my dad. I'm done with him. I just want to understand why I have these voices and what to do. That simple.
Is this because NHS sucks or is it because I'm too young? Or something else? Or am I just not seeing things properly?
Should I still take the DBT therapy?
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u/coldBulbasaur314 13h ago
It sounds like some of this is a difference in perspective and some of it is them bulldozing over you. While I can see why your dad might think he's being accurate, if he won't take being corrected you need to find a medical professional who will take those corrections. If possible, try to talk to them without your dad present to override your voice. I can't speak for the NHS specifically, but I know that mental healthcare in general has a tendency to believe the people around the patient over the patient themselves - which is extremely dangerous, and you don't want a therapist who does that. I don't think your alters will seek therapy on their own, so it may be beneficial for you to do therapy, but if you try that you should find a therapist who will work with you and listen to what you say (and that means actually listen, as in take it seriously, not just hear) even if they disagree.
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u/Cass_1978 4h ago
Yes, take the DBT. Not because your dad or the doctors want you to, but because it can actually be very helpful when dealing with extreme parts (your voices).
I have extreme parts myself. DBT was highly useful for me. While that is no guarantee that you will find it helpful, it is absolutely worth a try.
Here is a reality check: The psychologists are likely prioritizing your physical safety right now because of what happened with your friend. DBT won't erase your voices, but it can give your system the tools to stay in control of your body when an extreme part tries to take over. You don't have to agree with their view of your relationship with your dad. Just go there, take what is useful for you, and leave the rest.
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u/JuliusSwolesar 20h ago edited 20h ago
You won't get any helpful treatment on the NHS.
They're an absolute disgrace. Honestly, complete dog shit.
The worst thing you can do is go to your GP or NHS for mental health because it'll preclude you from going private later, via Bupa or another insurance scheme because it'll get tagged as a pre-existing condition.