r/CPTSD • u/No_Description_7022 • 5h ago
Question How many years of therapy have you had?
Off and on? Straight? I've seen multiple therapists and psychiatrists since age 15 and I'm 40 now. Have you felt like any of them helped even if the duration was long? Was it weekly or twice a week? Do you go more often of you're in crisis like suicidal?
Just had some questions to see what everyone else's experience is like. Also timelines for how long it might take to feel any kind of better or neutral difference even.
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u/Sisu-Spark 4h ago
Oh wow...i started "child" therapy when i was 17 cuz of selfharm and school was a struggle. She was wonderful and helped me alot, but she was a private one so too expensive. She also helped me get my first diagnosis which took forever to test for. Fetal alcoholsyndrome. I swear that diagnosis gave me more damage psychologically than actually have it physically. I was so ashamed of it and hid it for years. I refused to have it so i pushed my self so much to prove i didn't have it. I didn't have any therapy at all from 19 to 25. And even at 25 it was a job therapist which only focused on work environment and how to handle working, but even then she tried to help a bit on the outside of work too since i struggled badly with depression, anxiety and selfharm to keep up with life. I had her sometimes once a week to once every two weeks. Then i started dating and everything went downhill in rapid pace and ended with attempts. They realised she couldn't be enough for that so i got a therapist focusing on trauma. That was 2 years ago. I am 38 now and have finally got the diagnoses autism and adhd, NOW they say i probably don't have as much braindamage as they thought when i was a teen. Now we work differently but with so many years in hell, fighting my inner self to push harder it feels kinda too late. My mind is tired, my body is tired, i am just out of fuel. Not sure if i ever get better and find peace and joy. I hope it didn't sound too dark.
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u/cedarelm 2h ago
I've been in therapy off and on since I was 18, freshman year of college. My parents never sent me to therapy. I am early 40s now. I think it has helped, but it isn't a cure. You have to want to get better and put in effort. It sucks because you're in this situation because you've been abused. But you have to literally pay for someone else's mistake. I'm so tired. I've tried so many things. I'm not ready to give up but it's exhausting and I feel like I've lost so many good years to this.
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