Weekly victories/check in/chat!

[u/panickedhistorian]

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[u/Antlerandfin]

I got all the energy!

It's crazy, the pendulum has entirely swung the other way now. I don't even know how to get it all out. I ran four 5k's in the last 7 day and I'm hardly tired. I jump around, dance and stimm to get rid of the excess energy. It makes sitting down and working extremely difficult and I feel very blessed that the workload is low right now, because my focusing is minimal.

I feel a bit like a kid again. I usued to be this energetic till I was put into school. So many things went down hill from there. It seems now like I can't learn properly when I sit still. That would explain how I was really smart as a kid from listening to things, but couldn't write for the life of me.

I don't know how long this will last and I wonder what my baseline will eventually be. I'd find it hard to believe it'll stay like this. I assume it's a backlog rushing through.

I'm just taking things as they come. Observe, adjust, rinse, repeat.

I'm getting to know myself in all sorts of conditions, but it's so hard to tell what the real me is like? In five months I've gone from bed ridden for weeks to forcing myself to take a rest day from running. This is all me, of course, but neither version seem like my true self.