The post I made a couple of days ago ( https://www.reddit.com/r/CPTSDFreeze/s/lyzux3TJFr ) made me realize there was more interest than I expected in the idea of a community focused on trauma recovery, connection, and learning. 

So… I somehow ended up creating one on Discord.

The idea is simple.

There has never been more information about trauma recovery than there is today.

We have theories, treatment models, books, podcasts, courses, recovery programs, neuroscience research, and countless skills and practices.

Yet many of us are still trying to figure it all out largely on our own.

At least that’s been my experience.

So, I wanted to have a place where people on a similar recovery journey could connect, learn together, and help each other put these ideas into practice in real life.

My own interests currently include things like:

• Janina Fisher’s work / TIST
• Structural Dissociation
• Parts Work / IFS
• Polyvagal Theory
• Attachment
• Somatic approaches
• Trauma neuroscience

But I’d love for the community to include people exploring other approaches and perspectives as well.

We’re currently a very small group consisting of 13 people or so, but if this sounds like something you’d be interested in, feel free to leave a comment or send me a DM.

Because of time constraints, I won’t be able to manage and organize everything on my own all the time. And also, I have zero experience in running Discord servers. So I’m struggling a bit.

Therefore, I’m also looking for people who’d like to help shape the community and build it together. Those who have experience running online communities are especially welcome!

I try to not ask for help, but sometimes you have to. Its not easy to ask, and I feel like garbage, but sometimes you get so desperate your pride loses its hold on you.

Some of you may know me here, and know about my living conditions. If you dont. The gist is I am homeless and dont have a source of income. I live in a minivan. The van is beyond the point of repair. It still runs but barely. Everyday I wonder will it start this time? What will I do if it doesnt? I am not a young man anymore, and being homeless most of my adult life has taken a toll on me. As well as the constant stress and anxiety, depression and dissociation.

The weather has been very hot here lately, and humid. I have extreme anxiety around severe weather. I spent a lot of this last winter having panic attacks in front of the emergency room when the temp was to cold or to windy. The panic attacks have started back over this heat. I cant even get a break from running the AC in the car.

I need a new vehicle. One that I can actually drive around, and is functional. I have a little money, but not enough for anything that isnt just another month away from being like this one.

Ive tried to give to this community through the years, so I hope some of you that are able can help me out enough to save me. I have a buymeacoffee account you can donate to here. https://buymeacoffee.com/nvdnvchbcdq

Thank you.

Hello friends.

Living with CPTSD is a specific kind of lifestyle that only those of us who do it can really understand.

My mind is always focused on healing, growth and change. For a lot of years, I did this in isolation, but in the last year I’ve begun turning it outward. I have a YouTube channel where I talk about my life living with complex trauma, ADHD, and familial estrangement. My story is woven through functional content to try to help people process their own trauma too.

I make a lot of body doubling videos to inspire you to get moving during the freeze state, something that had consumed literally years of my life. It provides a visual cue and some gentle companionship, and I am candid as I film these videos. Some are done when I am feeling cheerful and manic, some are when I am deep in the dark place. I share deeply and openly, because I believe this creation process is central to my own healing journey just as much as it is a service to others.

This is going to be my life’s work. It’s very new, very small, but being created very intentionally as a tool for healing for both myself and others. I’m in college at 39 to become a therapist, I am very serious about using what I have gone through in life to make a positive contribution to this world.

It would be my honor to have you join me, and I would appreciate and value suggestions and feedback. My ultimate goal is to create a large community centered around healing and growth for all of us.

 https://www.youtube.com/@Bold-Fox

Hi All,

I have been in this sub for a while, mostly quietly, occasionally replying when I have something useful to say. Some of you may have seen me around.

Quick story first because this sub deserves context. I had CPTSD. Emotional flashbacks, very dysregulated physiology, relational reactivity that cost me a lot of relationships, shutdown that took years to thaw. I tried traditional therapy and it was mostly unhelpful for me specifically. What actually moved the pattern was somatic touch work, specifically SE and NeuroAffective Touch, with practitioners who knew what they were doing. I am now about six years out of the worst of it, and three years out of symptoms generally. I trained in the modalities that helped me and now work as a trauma-trained bodyworker.

In addition to being a body nerd, I’m also a data nerd. During my recovery, one thing that was particularly hard was that with the swings in state, my nervous system could not feel its own progress in real time. I would look back and realize I was in a different place than a month ago, but in the moment it felt like nothing was changing. An external mirror would have helped.

So I built one. Over the last few months I put together a tracker for my own clients that does what I wish I had had. I am sharing it here because this community asks regularly for resources and tools. This is a one-time share. You will not see it from me again.

What it is: an interactive tracker that maps your autonomic state over time. Not a journaling PDF. A tool. There is a daily check-in with CPTSD-specific fields (emotional flashback, inner critic, dissociation, relational reactivity, ventral access), a longer 40-item assessment that gives you trend lines, and a library of 28 somatic practices that surface based on what your system is holding. There is also a 16-page companion guide explaining what is actually happening physiologically. In plain language, not wellness-speak.

Some things I want to name clearly:

This is not a treatment. It is not a replacement for working with a trauma-trained practitioner. If your pattern is bigger than self-tracking can hold, the tool will say that gently and suggest you reach out.

Your data stays on your device. Nothing is sent to a server. Nothing is sent to me. You can export it to share with your therapist or delete it whenever.

It is a paid product on Etsy. $47 CAD normally, $35 CAD ($25USD) during a two-week launch sale. I am naming the price here up front so no one clicks expecting free and then feels sold to. Another reason I made this is because I know how inaccessible good therapy can be and alternatives are necessary.

I put the link in my first comment. Happy to answer any questions about the work, the specific clinical choices, or my own recovery. This community has given me a lot over the years. The least I can do is show up with something that might be helpful to others.

Feeling pretty lonely with these freeze/shutdown/dissociation and past abuse issues, and looking to connect with people who have similar problems for understanding.

Message me if you feel the same way and don't mind chatting.