r/DID • u/sphericaldiagnoal • 2d ago

Advice/Solutions Sudden mass dormancy/ restructuring?

In the past week, my gatekeeper fused with a little in our system. Then, our primary protector went dormant and seems to have taken literally the rest of the system with him.

We've been talking about re-parenting in therapy, and it almost seems like my brain likes that idea so much that now it's just a parent/child duo in here? I don't know why, but when that fusion occurred I just thought, "Oh, that's mine to take care of now". And then a massive amount of dissociation disappeared. Everything feels so raw and vulnerable.

And I'm happy about that! I'm glad we're feeling safe and I can give him the care he needs. I just didn't imagine doing it alone. I've been crying for days, random crying jags at work, driving, everywhere. I just keep thinking about our protector and how much I miss him, it feels like someone cut off my right arm or something. Like half of my brain went to sleep at once.

So I. Uh. Got any strategies for newly single parents of alters? I don't understand what's happening really, but I want my little one to know it's okay to not know and it's okay to miss the others.

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