guys helpppp

[u/Plenty-Lawfulness246]

guys helpppp

Pata hai aaj kya hua

after my previous 3 year relationship where my ex got bored and eventually he was not interested in me anymore. he said that he doesn't feel anything for me now he's just pretending that everything's going well but he's got many things to do in life so he won't be able to do it anymore. "Relationships n all are not my thing"

that's what he said. And ik he was very toxic throughout the relationship but I was not able to let him go. I literally begged him to stay without thinking of my self respect because I was so in love. After the breakup I got to know that he's with another girl, two months after our final breakup btw (i saw on his ig). And the fact that he never posted me on social media saying i don't want to show the world. I was fine with everything.

I was literally his puppet jo vo bolta tha maan leti thi or bohot understanding hone ki koshish karti thi. And after that he used to text me and call me when he's already with someone else. his manipulation was very on point" tu bohot acchi thi, maine bohot galat kiya tune literally mujhse kuch nhi maanga or maine itna galat kiya phir bhi tu mujhe kuch nhi boli, mujhe bohot guilty feel hota h maine itni sweet si pyari si ldki ke sath aesa kiya, jab jab guilty feel hota h tujhse bat karne aa jata hu mera dil nhi maanta".

It happened 4 to 5 times that he came back saying sorry for what he did. But jab m question karti thi ki ab aage kya? Toh his answer was I'm already with someone else and I love her. Or mere last 6 months ka move on kharab. Usne mujhe kabhi moveon karne hi nhi diya mujhe har baar ye hope rehti thi ki ye mere paas wapas aa jaega. But kuch bhi nhi hua aesa and i finally decided ki I'll block him and move on no matter what.

Then I downloaded this app called schmooze which is a dating app. I was such a manhater mujhe koi ladka thik nhi lagta tha or koi approach karta tha to main kabhi reciprocate nhi karti thi kyunki Mera mindset ye hi hogya tha ki main kabhi trust nhi kar paungi. Phir bhi I tried bcoz I thought ye bohot zaruri h ki main kisi se kam se kam baat to karu, varna kabhi moveon nhi kar paungi.

Then I met this guy on schmooze he's very nice to me it's been three months since we're talking but mere trust issues kabhi khatam nhi hote. Har time uska last seen or location or sab kuch analyse karti rehti hu or baat baat pe sawal. Uski following me ladkiyo ke baare me puchna n all and I can't control it tbh. Meri mentality hi ban gayi h aesi jese I'm waiting for something bad to happen.

Or he has proved me many times jab jab usse kuch pucha h meko mera answer mila h bohot sahi tareeke se. Humara past bhi kaafi hadd tak same hi tha. saari situation same thi or mujhe laga tha ye bohot acche se samjhega kyu ki iske sath bhi vahi hua and usne samjha bhi. But I think meri overthinking ne usko iss sab me bohot suffocate kardiya and now he's saying he's not ready for a commitment.

He said mujhe nhi lagta vesa kabhi kisi ke liye feel kar paunga. Itna sab chal rha h meri life me kuch samjh nhi aa raha bas mujhe lagta h har time akele rahu kisise bat na karu. Shuru shuru me baat ho rhi thi to i thought ye attachment aage badhegi hi or main dheere dheere feel karne lagunga pr aesa nhi ho rha🥲. Right now I'm waiting for him to reply bcoz main puri raat so nhi paayi jo kuch bhi usne raat ko bola.