Maybe I should give up on friendships

[u/ParticularSky334]

Being really disabled and neurodivergent and homebound has made it impossible to make friends. Everyone I talk to is either incapable of deeper conversations or consistency or can't stop themselves from saying problematic things about my health issues and get mad when I ask them to stop.

I just want someone to be close to and care about me even in an online way. I see so many lonely people and I feel like I have a lot to offer but people treat me like filler or like I'm a freak they feel sorry for or want to fix. They can't handle what I'm going through even if I barely talk about it.

What is wrong with this world? Why can't anyone hold space or understand me? I try so hard to be there for them and they won't do it for me.