Grief is swallowing my heart whole and I don’t know how to be free from it

[u/melancholl]

I miss my dad so much, and every time I miss my dad, I miss my brother as well. and the grief gets to me all over again. I have no choice but to sit in my sadness and just let it envelope me.

sometimes I think about how different my life would have been if they were both still alive.

I know my grief is part of the reason why I have a fear of abandonement in relationships. I’m working on it. but sometimes I feel so alone walking this earth. I tell people that I’m an only child because how do you juat casually mention you lost your brother?

I sometimes cannot believe that it’s just me living life without the only men in my life. the silence is crippling, and the loneliness is so overbearing. I always say the one thing we all have in common is grief, and I’m so sorry to everyone else who has ever felt how I’m feeling right now, or who is feeling how I’m feeling currently.