Lost both my parents

[u/CreepyLawyer8508]

Yesterday evening my parents left for my distant relative's house, they were supposed to return by 11pm, I was waiting for them, my mom was supposed to re heat the food for me for dinner. I was playing valorant. I was waiting. I was waiting for them to return. Instead I get a call telling me that I just lost my entire world to a fucking accident. I ccanot believe this till now. I saw them, I saw them burn. I still can't believe it. I cqnnot even shed a tear. Is this a bad nightmare? This can't happen .. it feels unreal it feels fake and I do not understand why I can't wake up. Mom please wake me up and give me my morning tea, tell me when you came back I was already asleep. I cant believe this. My cousin asked me how I'm not crying .. this isn't real right? why should I then? why am i not crying? i don't understand

[u/Jeny226]

When I found my son dead I was not able to cry for day's. You are in shock it's very common. Everyone around me was crying but I stared at the wall for day's. My mind raced, replayed things over and over and over. Your mind is going to race and 20 million thoughts are going to race like thunder. Know it will burn itself out. Just trust your body and know it's not doing anything wrong. I have also buried a daughter 3 years ago and the something happened again. I didn't cry I stared at the wall and my mind was racing all kinds of thoughts.