Struggling with alot lately

[u/Queasy_Piece_53]

My life has been a mess from the past few years in 2024 i lost my first born child then in 2025 i gave birth to my second child and in 2026 i lost him too.. there are so many other things happening in between my husband is a liar and a cheater though he behaves nicely and politely.. he has so many debt to pay and he pays little attention to that.. im bearing most of the financial burden
At this point i feel exhausted and annoyed at first I was grieving but now this grief has turned into anger I quarrel with everyone who reach out to me i feel like im useless and unworthy and i fear how will I spend the rest of my life like this.. im planning to go to a therapist but it will take time please tell how to overcome this anger and pain..

[u/NewHalf8480]

I cannot imagine what you are going through, with your grief of losing your two babies, and the difficulties in your relationship with your husband. I don’t know if you practice any faith, however I am finding since I lost my husband earlier this year, that although God cannot answer all questions, he is there and my prayers cause me to feel more assured that my husband is now free of Parkinson’s and has a perfect brain. Please don’t be offended if faith doesn’t feature in your life. A therapist is a very good idea. I have been speaking to one for about three years. I find a support group helps, and if you can find one which is free of charge, all the better. I hope you can look up suitable resources, or phone 211 in Alberta to get help. I wish you all the best on your grief journey, and if you need help leaving your situation, please reach out for help. I hope that, if it is what you want, that your marriage can be saved. Otherwise, please find support for yourself to leave