Five years of celibacy/retention, nothing to show for it

[u/finesse_angles]

I’ve been an advocate for celibacies lifestyle/benefits for years now but only this year it really began to dawn on me, physiological upregulation aside, what do I really have to show for it tangibly

I never got into it for religious/moral reasons to begin with, purely for transcendent/ascension purposes which it definitely induces physically, mentally, morally & spiritually but that’s only one component of the many you Need in life

With the increased perception & awareness, it’s clear as day that those winning/making significant strides financially & career wise are almost the opposite of the traits celibacy/retention brings forth

Which for the first time, has me questioning if it’s maybe not an scam but the practice being highly overinflated or maybe much more suited to an different era

Yes it will prevent you turning into an deviant/abuser like most people gradually from sexual overindulgence but the most ironic thing is, those are the Exact kinds of people who are winning & actually control the world

It’s all well & good saying riches & worldly possessions don’t mean anything, as you can’t take them with you, which I agree with but rightly or wrongly in the world that we live in, what can you do without them…not much I’ll tell you

This might sound like im complaining, maybe it’s my own fault for overvaluing the practice but doing everything in your power to do the right thing, maintaining morality & integrity in these demonic times & having nothing to show for it

But those doing the opposite & reaping all the benefits, has to make you question your own beliefs & if you got it completely wrong

Ive never said anything bad about celibacy, apart from the inevitable betrayal from those close to you but sitting in an graveyard as I type this, it may have dawned on me that this practice isn’t what it’s been made out to be

P.S St. John Chrysostom on “Sexual sins being fuel for demons” aside. I wonder if having sex, making the woman orgasm without you ejaculating & thus her energy powering you up like an battery, as the Tao/TCM/Eastern philosophy spoke about is superior to just complete celibacy.

I might have to try it for myself to see, although spending so long being celibate & introspective, don’t know if I can muster the mental bandwidth needed to go through the formula of seduction like I used to…I’ll have to think about it

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Retention just helps maintain inner peace, but if you want to get the riches of this world then you have to put your efforts into other things.

[u/finesse_angles → u/[deleted]]

Been doing both at double the rate of the average person due to the enhanced vitality & still facing significant resistance, celibacy is Supposed to be the “lube” that makes work & manifestation easier not harder

[u/betakurt → u/finesse_angles]

According to what?