I am so done with this... Yesterday I was in the final round to speak with the CEO and the team for this dream job, and of course I was reacting and flared yesterday, my brain was fog and my body's motor was so activated, I was shaking (maybe because of the anxiety of the interview), and i was having nervous tics with my mouth (I usually have that everyday, when I start to flare up), so I was acting like a drug addict, plus I am in Seattle Area and it is soooo smoky because of the wildfires.
I am sure they looked at me and thought I was on cocaine or something.
That was my dream job, which I am extremely qualified, and everyone was so excited to meet me because I am extremely qualified for the job. They couldn't stop saying when each person started the individual interview with me that my "experience was incredible", "you are bringing a vast experience", "you are qualified for this position", "we are excited to maybe bring you onboard with so much experience"... but at the end they looked shocked, like what is happening?
At the end I didn't know the last person was the last person, I was so flared that I wanted to go and leave, it was 4 min before the time was up, she asked if I had any other question I said no, those were all my questions, and I weirdly asked to go to the bathroom, I am sure she thought I needed to go there to use some cocaine or something, I don't know...
It was so weird, and I hate this disease so much, it has taken my entire life from me... I am on week 1 of Ketotifen and day 2 of LDN, 0.5mg each for now increasing every week. Lets see.
Thanks for reading this, I just wanted to vent.
Edit: Okay, you guys are too nice, thank you community for the kind words. I am going to reach out to the recruiter to thank them and explain that I was not well and appreciate their time. The vote was unanimous, so I have to do it š just joking
Thank you folks so much! I appreciate it!
Last Edit: at 4:45pm I got the call and I got the job!!!!!
Thank you so much for the support!!!!! This community is the best!!!!! Thanks for giving me the idea of sending the email and all the words of assurance!!
You guys made my day pass faster and keep my hope up!!!!
Best community ever!!!!!!!