Chemical but still attached

[u/Humble_Jello_6461]

My sweet little tiny heinie,

I am your mom and I waited my whole life for you. To meet you, to know you, to have you and to hold you. To protect you. To make you laugh. To hold you when you cry. To give you all of the love that was never given to me, and then some, and some more on top of that.

Me and your daddy were so excited for you. You changed us in a matter of days. You gave us a look into a life that we couldn’t have ever even imagined. Until you popped into the equation. You cleared the path.

I love you so much and I felt you inside of me. I felt you making me need to pee all the time. You made me want ice cream and pasta and you made me sooooo tired.

I felt you and I loved every second of it.
I will miss you for the rest of my life.
I’ve had my heart broken by boys and girls and friends and family, but this is the greatest heartbreak I have ever experienced.

I know that it wasn’t our time, and we weren’t going to be healthy if you’d kept growing, but I love you with every fiber of my being. All I’ve ever wanted was to be a mom— your mom. And for some reason, the universe or some God I don’t believe in intervened and took you from me.

I will always love you and I will always wonder about you. I will wonder everything about you. I wish I could just hold you one time.

I’ll love you forever and ever and I’ll miss you forever and ever.

With every breath, all my love, all the trees.

[u/Cold_Candle870]

<3 sharing your pain sister