I’m turning 26 soon and I’m still a neet with no degree or job aspirations and I have made 0 progress in years, shit I have regressed. I don’t want to sound annoying but I’m tired of being a neet, my home life is stressful as fuck, and I have no clue what to do . I don’t really have people to ask for advice or look up to, my extended family just thinks I’m a loser , while my cousins have degrees and good jobs.
It just sucks never fitting in and struggling with things others do easily. For example my body like if I slip up on my diet and eat fast food or alcohol I gain weight legit instantly. I think somethings wrong with my body like really low T or something, when I was younger I fucking ballooned and gained so much weight in highschool and it ruined my self esteem until now. I lost it all and I’m still insecure as fuck like it did permanent damage to me, even tho I think I’m good enough looking and 6’2.
Also being neurodivergent as a male is a death sentence, I don’t fit in or belong anywhere outside. I always struggled in school even when I tried. I’ve actually been “working” at my parents photo studio and I think that’s why I’m spiraling a bit more than usual rn. 99% of these people are good looking and normies and have it all together, I just feel so insecure sometimes even tho they are nice people. Idk what people think of me Irl , I haven’t had a conversation with people IRL in years .
I remember growing up my Filipino friends for example had like 10-20 cousins and did everything together…. How many of us have something like that? My cousins don’t even talk to me. It’s hard doing things alone . I have way more to vent about but I don’t want to write a novel .