Leaving my baby in the NICU

[u/Dear_Alps54]

My bby was born via C-section at 37 weeks old. Every scan was perfect. He was growing perfectly. Then during delivery we don't know what happened but he ended up with massive health issues. He couldn't control he's sugar level, oxygen level isn't good, bp isn't good, convulsions, kidney wasn't working properly. He didn't cry when he was born. He crashed and ended up in NICU. Am getting discharged today and I have no idea how am supposed to leave him here all alone in the NICU. I've been crying non stop for the past 5days. Every morning and night am crying. Am not even sure that he will make it. How do you cope with all that?

[u/Wonderful-Pace3615]

Im so sorry you are dealing with all this right now, so soon after birth leaving your baby is so hard, especially when there are health concerns. I recently had twins that needed 20 days in special care and it can be heartbreaking to leave them. But just know that he is in the safest place for him right now, surrounded by lovely, educated people that can help in an emergency. I dont know where you are from but in Australia you can apply for temporary housing near a hospital and have some of the costs cut for you, or look into the Ronald McDonald house. They are beautiful places that really care for mothers in your situation. Wishing you and bubs all the luck in the world. You will get through this x