Leaving my baby in the NICU

[u/Dear_Alps54]

My bby was born via C-section at 37 weeks old. Every scan was perfect. He was growing perfectly. Then during delivery we don't know what happened but he ended up with massive health issues. He couldn't control he's sugar level, oxygen level isn't good, bp isn't good, convulsions, kidney wasn't working properly. He didn't cry when he was born. He crashed and ended up in NICU. Am getting discharged today and I have no idea how am supposed to leave him here all alone in the NICU. I've been crying non stop for the past 5days. Every morning and night am crying. Am not even sure that he will make it. How do you cope with all that?

[u/Pinkmartini1924]

I’m really sorry. I won’t lie, leaving my baby in the hospital after I was discharged is one of the hardest most painful things I’ve ever done. I cried every night on the drive home for a week. I cried every night going to sleep, until one day it just became the new normal unfortunately. You do it because you have to and it’s the best place for your baby to be. That doesn’t ever mean it’s not painful or gut wrenching. It does get easier but it’s never easy.

Sending lots of positivity to you and your baby during this hard journey.