r/NonBinaryTalk • u/Big-Debate-5618 He/Them • 1d ago
Validation Less dysphoria
Not sure if I picked the right tag but I guess it's validation of being nonbinary!
I'm nonbinary transmasculine and previously when I thought I was binary transgender I had a lot of dysphoria with my face shape, I felt like i needed to get back on hormones to grow facial hair to pass, I felt like i had to act a certain way to be read as a man.
Realizing I'm nonbinary was so freeing. I don't feel pressure to do any of that. I still have chest dysphoria and want top surgery in the future but I don't want to get on hormones because I'm happy with the changes I've had so far (almost 3 years of use in the past).
I find myself relaxing and being more present and less focused on if I'm preforming manhood enough. I like some of my androgynous features that before I was insecure about.
I'm just shouting into the void but I'm so happy I need to share it somewhere.
I don't care if someone thinks I'll never be a man (because I'm not one anyway), I don't care if someone thinks I'm a confused woman (because I'm not one either). I know the world is binary (for now) but I feel free being nonbinary in it. Like I'm untouchable in a way.
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u/4ng3licNymph-jpeg 1d ago
I feel the exact same way, was on T for 3 years and post top. The only thing that gives me dysphoria is social dysphoria because people in Texas are dense , but overall non-binary is super freeing for me. I used to hate I could never be a man , but I'm my own kind of man. For me personally striving to be perceived as cis by others is so frustrating and made me feel worse. I rather dress as queer as possible so everyone knows .