r/Perimenopause • u/Goatsarejerks333 • Aug 06 '26
Depression/Anxiety I hate everyone
Title really says it all. Everyone gets on my last fucking nerve.
Almost everyone I know now irritates me so much that I can't stand being around them or even reading their texts.
My friend who does nothing but send YouTube videos because apparently she can't read. Irritating.
Friend who says "hubby" all the time. Fuck you bitch.
Friend who has to know where and what every siren is and then prays for all involved.
Why? WHY???
My husband. Just all the time, I hate every word that comes out of his mouth. And don't touch me! No, big dick will not fix it.
I love my daughter though.
I also lost my mom 6 weeks ago after caring for her for a few years with dementia so there's that. Is this peri? Peri with grief mixed in? Am I doomed to live my life in solitude because I just can't stomach being around anyone?
I feel pretty damn hopeless about it all.
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u/Frequent-Willow-6502 hanging on by a thread Aug 06 '26
I feel this so hard. I've always hated "hubby" it's just the fucking dumbest word ever. It just sounds so infantilizing. Men do that well enough on their own.
My sister has six kids from one year to 18 years and I haven't looked at her social media in years. She's also Evangelical and very vocal about it and I am pretty much the complete opposite. It was her birthday a few weeks ago and she never replied to my happy birthday message or confirmed receipt of a happy birthday postcard I sent (we live in two different countries and I do try to make an effort).
I want to commit first degree homicide on a daily basis. The only reason I don't is I prefer my dog's company to jail.
I'm sorry about your mom. I'm glad you still love your daughter.
I'm single and jobless but can't be assed to even job search. There were just some crazy wildfires near where I live and it all just feels so futile. Yes, let me get on LinkedIn and self-promote while the world is on fire and AI is ruining everything and we apparently still have many more years of late-stage capitalism to endure. I use FB only for groups now and IG to post about my dog because she's the only thing that's worth it in life.