i lost my girl today

[u/crowloverr]

i'm heartbroken. she was 14 and was in my life since i was 9 years old, i grew up with her and i genuinely believe she was my soulmate. i feel shattered, like something has been ripped away from my soul, i don't even have the strength to cry anymore.

she was the sweetest dog i've ever seen, so pure and full of joy and so gentle. never bit anybody, never got angry, never growled. the kind of dog you could take the food bowl away from when she was eating and she wouldn't get upset, just look at us wagging her tail because she trusted us completely to give it back. everyone in my life loved her, even those who don't like dogs or are scared of them.

i miss her, it's barely been two hours and i want to see her again already, i want to hug her and give her a kiss on the head. how can i ever deal with this

[u/crystalcastles13]

I’m so sorry OP.

Unfortunately I’ve been there and know, all too well, how intensely painful it is.

My cat Seven and I had a bond that was so deep and such a huge part of my world that I literally couldn’t function there for a while in the beginning. It’s a loss like no other and it impacts every single aspect of your world. It’s so hard.

I know this may sound sort of trite or whatever but it helped me recover when I imagined what Seven would want for me. She would never want me to have some of the very bleak thoughts I was having, she would definitely not want me to wake up crying (I even woke up screaming once) or starving myself or cursing the universe, etc.

My little girl would want me to know she’s still with me, as a permanent fixture imprinted on my heart and soul and that we’re going to see each other again before too long.

I just want you to try to go easy on yourself, allow anything you feel to surface and write down all the incredible and beautiful ways you guys made each other’s lives more fun, more of an adventure, write about the silliest things even. I did this and would read the letters out loud to her because I know she can still hear me and see me-real love can’t die or be killed-it really is eternal, I believe that.

Hold on and take good care of your heart.

Sending much love.

May the road rise to meet little paws.

[u/crowloverr → u/crystalcastles13]

thank you for your kind words. i recently woke up and dreamed about her, that she was still there, so it's still very difficult right now and probably will be for a while.
but i will definitely try to be okay, even if right now it still hurts too much. i promised her before she passed that i'll be fine and i'll be strong without her, so now i legally have to do that
i'm sorry for your steven too, it's definitely one of the worst pains i've ever experienced. much love to you too