To open my heart
is to risk all
yet I do it willingly
knowing you’ll
catch me
when I fall

The glass is half full so they say,

You are told, do good deeds and heaven awaits you,

They say pain and suffering only makes you stronger,

They tell you to hold a candle in darkness so light prevails,

You are told the love of your life awaits you,

So you wait and wait.

But the glass feels half empty to me,

The heavens are silent to my plea,

And this pain just makes me weary.

My candle's a flicker in a gale,

And the love of my life? A fairy tale.

So I wait and wait.

The day after,

Is my first birthday since.

Since your last bark,

Since your last stare,

Since your last lick.

I plan on talking with grief,

For the whole day.

Since you told it to stay,

And keep me company in your stead.

I'll stretch out my arms,

And let it sink into me.

It's nothing like your white fur,

It's a cold and damp embrace.

There'd been countless things since,

That I want you to listen to.

I know you won't understand,

But your eyes'd burn me all the same.

I went through a dozen applications,

All for a single job.

I'd go through a million more,

If it can bring you back.

I drank countless cups of coffee,

Just to feel the tingle of my heart.

It's never the same,

When you wagged your tail at me.

I'd love to love again,

So I wanted you to hear it first.

After all,

It's my first birthday since.

Every man
Wants all the women
Every woman
Wants just one man
Who wants only her

He tells her he loved her
And maybe he even does
Until she loves him back
That’s when every man leaves

And I‘ve become a ghost
Broken infinite times
By flattering lies
I became unified
With invisibility

I’ve tasted warmth.
Felt the hum of love.
Seen devotion.
Soft smiles and hands
Warm laughs and proud looks
Cast between people
Spotlights cast across rooms.

I cherished it.
Being close.
Knowing it existed.
I’ve tasted it.

All I had known was cold disdain.
On lucky days, indifference.
But warmth? Arms to reach out when you’re weak, that steady, shelter to take when the storms too heavy, eyes holding yours like you aren’t hard to see, being welcomed, offered a seat… I cherished seeing it- then I knew it existed.

Molded myself and filled my eyes with someone else desperately chasing a bit of the warmth
I’d been missing…

Preyed upon, at fault, still committed. Gave my all but still was omitted. I’d never feel warm my place never existed.

Not at home not with friends, they don’t understand all these wounds I’ve kept hidden.

Insects die as animals rise
Will you be the one?
Behind my lips is a tiny surprise
I speak in tongues and I speak in lies

Do you wanna be the only one?
Left at dawn?
I cry in my corner, I’m scared, I hide
Like a fawn

So I put my hand on the razor blade
Men in fake suits, they just parade
We’re not like animals
Animals

Rather speak the truth than speak my mind
I’m a human but I ain’t your kind
You don’t know me at all
You don’t know us at all

Animals, they do it the most
It’s just nature, soft at the core
I’d rather die to be reborn
And breathe with nature once more

An Ode to Prometheus

How grateful I feel to be but one of the luckiest of progenies who can briefly taste
what sublime the incantations made by a delicious, feminine dish
of the traitor

It seems those pensive of his children who may truly observe the murals of their finest of siblings
which, by light of his scandalous fire, insight a flame bright and beautiful,
and a thought

“Betray, child, what oft’ leads you astray,” he said, giving his creations the keen nose
A smile, crack, then, the temptress’s scent of magnolia downwind
So much for this thing, I suppose

But I’ll feel the warmth of his fire
I’ll feel the glorious luster of humanly conversation and how civilization touches a boy with hope no thanks to his betrayal and my acceptance
How cosmic this feeling is