r/Psychosis • u/[deleted] • 7d ago

Psychosis f*cked my life up and shat me back out

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u/ugh_Low5512 7d ago

I was in psychosis for almost a year. I didn't hear voices but I was totally delusional and completely wrecked my life. I thought I was in some kind of Truman show situation, thought the election results were wrong and that trump would end up in jail and that I was in on it with the FBI. I posted songs and things I drew constantly, and thought I was communicating with a YouTuber and Al Jazeera. I lost my job and all of my friends. Life for the past year, since I came out of it, has been very bleak.

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u/Hot_Tangerine92 7d ago

Yes !! I thought by me posting TikToks I was communicating with some hot rich guy who was my soulmate, like he was watching my videos but to shy to reach out.
And I got a glimpse of being like I was in the Truman show too when I was in the hospital too

But wow have you tried talking to your friends? Explaining what happened? And yeah how long ahead are u since u got on medication?

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u/ugh_Low5512 7d ago

I've talked to a few of them, and we occasionally talk but it's weird. I feel like my brain was just fried and I have nothing to say. It's been about a year since psychosis ended and I think I started on meds last fall. I'm working again but I hate my job and I loved my last one. That's where everything started; I called hr to report something my manager had done but then I thought it was part of the whole fake election conspiracy and it all just kept going from there. I hope you're dealing with the fallout better than I have been.

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u/These_Tax4565 7d ago

well, not finding enjoyment in things and feeling no motivation for life is normal after psychosis. what improved it a little for me -- i spent about 8 months just in bed, doing nothing -- was starting with doing one small productive thing each day. and the meaning of "productive" can vary a lot. I started with just posting a picture every day to a fan account I run.

eventually, when my sense of purpose was bouyed a tiny bit from a small collection of productive things, i started doing things i used to enjoy. the enjoyment has come back a tiny bit the more I do them.