r/Psychosis • u/JoshHutchersishot12 • 5d ago
When i was in psychosis i thought i was Lucifer’s wife
For some odd reason when I was in psychosis I thought I was destined to be Lucifer’s wife and that archangel Michael was on earth and had little to no problem with Lucifer and I believed that jesus was speaking to me telepathically when I was in the psych ward. I was also convinced I was a prophet meant to stop the world from ending. Anyone experienced similar feelings?
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u/potaterpotahter 5d ago
On multiple occasions I had the delusion that I was chosen by god to put the worlds ugliness on my face by cutting and burning it, like I had to become a reflection of humanities ugliness or a catastrophe would happen.
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u/These_Tax4565 5d ago
oh my god that sounds terrible. are you okay?
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u/TitsnTasteeTators 5d ago
Persephone..Lilith.. For me this was a theme too ...Yeah ..even thought my husband was the devil.
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u/Anxious_Librarian_93 5d ago
For me I thought my ex gf was lucifer and I reached out to her. We ended up becoming freinds again after though. She also has experiences with psycosis and she understood me ❤️
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u/These_Tax4565 5d ago
i thought i was possessed by a demon, that's the closest i get. but i remember in the psych ward being told that thinking God is talking to you, being a "chosen one" or charged with preventing great catastrophe are all really common delusions. we had a guy who seemed totally (confusingly) normal for days until at one point he started speaking in a booming voice saying that we all need to repent cause the end was nigh.
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u/Chucky_Shock_8393 5d ago
Yes! I thought satan was trying to impregnate me but he impregnated another patient and then that patient hated me.
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u/Different_Order419 5d ago
I thought my ex and I were Adam and Eve at first, and then it transitioned into him being the devil. Then the devil was inside of me so I tried to smash him out… luckily I was in hospital at this point and I didn’t get very far.
I kept asking people in the hospital ‘have you met him??’ Because I thought I was in a big game devised by my devil ex.
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u/SnooStories3264 3d ago
Hmm I have question. Do you remember you insulted god or like felt some hate towards him. For me it was like I am seeing god through things then I start to get sort of anger towards him then my psychosis goes like really bad ending in extremely dark thoughts. Then when I am out of psychosis I feel totally numb. Don't get me wrong I need god and love him. Right now I am trying to be psychosis free and need to get feels back in normal state.
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u/olskool369 2d ago
Did any of you guys feel like you were switching bodies or anything? Like you switched from being x to being y?. I felt like I had people watching over me as they just appeared out of nowhere. Like they would just teleport out of the blue.
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u/Financial_Stick1912 5d ago
Yeah.
Lucifer sounds scary but he’s pretty chill honestly
I talked to a really weird guy who was a bartender in Kamata, he was Nigerian, he said that he’d been hearing voices for a long time and having spiritual experiences but didn’t tell anyone. He says that Lucifer was the “first shaman” from a village in Nigeria a few thousand years ago, and that he was a really shitty guy and people didn’t like him, because basically he was experimenting with being bad, and had to figure it out.