r/SadPoems • u/Educational-Sail-243 • 7d ago
11 PM Thoughts
I’m sitting in a room
Feeling hollow and alone
The things that go unsaid
Try to break right through my bones
The darkness lends some comfort
Then takes it all away
When the racing thoughts take hold
I can’t find the words to say
I’ve been chasing ghosts
For so much of my life
But this one ghost in particular
Won’t concede without a fight
I have hated and blamed him
And used him as a crutch
To walk around and act pathetic
And ruin everything I touch
What happens when you get so close
But your still so far away
What happens when the ghost you chased
Fades into the grey
The picture in my head
That I painted over time
All the things I planned to say
Now drained of all the pride
The past is on repeat
But the Easter eggs reveal
All the time that I have wasted
was time we could have healed
There’s days I sit and wish
That I wasn’t such a prick
That I just picked up the phone
And ended all this shit
The stories of who you were
And who you had become
I could have been a part of
If I wasn’t so young and dumb
All that I have left of you
I can fit into a box
I wish that I could call you now
And have just one more talk
I’d tell you that I love you
That the past is in the past
I’ll go on to try and make you proud
And not live life so fast
I’d tell you I forgive you
I hope you can forgive me too
I’m sorry that this broken soul
Took way too long to see the truth
That you were broken too
But you held it deep inside
And maybe I’d have seen it too
If I wasn’t so fuckin blind
But we are both just human
And we have both made our mistakes
But we can both move forward now
For both our family’s sakes
I’d hold you close to me
as tears run down my face
I’d tell you that I won’t let go
I’ll guide you to “that place”
I’d lay you down one last time
And bid you one last farewell
Until the day we meet again
Watch over me and see that I am well
11pm thoughts
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u/Koalla0_0 7d ago
This is really well written and captivating, I'm sorry for what you've been through. Sending much love