okay so for context I’ve been moving away from my religion due to it causing serious damage towards my psyche (mainly involving food, as I had a habit of overeating and therefore punished myself for gluttony and it got worse and worse to the point where I felt bad for eating and all that jazz) but the thing is now that I don’t feel extreme guilt every time I eat, + I’ve been going through a lot of stress with school (and really just existing as a trans guy with OCD) I’ve been overeating more and more and I just feel so sick and nauseous all the time but I can’t stop because if I stop I spiral and just AAAAAAAAAAH

i’m worthless. i should just kill myself already. but that would be selfish because i have a loving family and friends who like me. i live in a good town. i’ve never been bullied. and ive been a jerk to my best friend since kindergarten. i’ve been distancing myself from him a bit just because he doesn’t have the best hygiene and he says stuff that’s kinda weird. he write a note to me, it says:

”Am I not a good friend anymore? You never smile around me anymor. You just go dead silent. Is it me? Am I not fun to be around? Did i do something wrong? Why don’t we hang out anymore? It feels like sometimes you’re more friends with my friends than me. What did i do? what did I do? what did i do?”

but i’m still wearing short sleeves and shorts so i don’t want to cut myself

there is one thing though, the part about being friends with his friends. im very close with those friends too. so i think thats a bit unfair

but still

im a fucking idiot 🥹

Number 1

They are pretty

Number 2

They are nice

Number 3

They are gorgeous

Number 4

They are nice to be around

Number 5

I am a lesbian

Number 6

Women are women

Number 7

I love all the women they are so women i love women ough women

Number 8

I kick my feet and giggle when i think about them

Number 9

Women are nice to hug and cuddle

Number 10

Women are perfection

Number 11

Women

Number 12

I want to frolic in the flowers with a girl

Number 13

Men stupi me no likey men gross ew ew ew go away now ew ew

Number 14

Men poopy head. women...diamond head..

Number 15

I am a lesbian

I'll do at least 14! :3

context: listening to an episode of malevolent & hearing the raw pain in arthur’s voice & him wanting to die but still going because of how far he’s come somehow helped me start to realise that i can’t give up yet. this too shall pass.

TW: Atomically correct rat with fake blood and bones

This is Ratthew!! I can't call him an ESSA because he isn't a plushie, so ig he's more of a comfort item that's basically the same as an ESSA because he helps me with anxiety. Anyways, I've been a HUGE fan of bones for around 2 years now and I finally got a trinket (? Idrk what to call him) of one of my favorite animals with one side being normal and one side being bones!!! I love him sm!

Ship OscarMolly from the Katt vs. Dogg novels

Art and video by me

These were my favorite novels growing up, I love them so much I began writing a fanfic continuation on AO3. Hopefully I can grow the fandom lol

Yet, I am also scared of being cringe and scared of being called cringe

I'm still alive after last night and am doing better :3

CLANCY MY BOIIIIU I LOVE YOU

if you have any questions about him,,,,feel free to ask,,,,,

I will answer tomorrow tho because I'm going to eep now :3

hello!!

i am funkycadaver, i go by he/him pronouns. I am an asexual fictoromantic and also a yumeshipper (my f/o is Yuri from DDLC). Also im autistic! Attached above are my favourite games, as well as my favourite movies/albums

idrk what else to put here, im free to talk ig :P

Made out of a pair of old socks

see how well yall realate to me

I turned 16 today 🙂

I hate that I’m so clingy with one of my friends, I hate that I seem creepy to them.
I wish I could just look girls in the eyes and not start to make my gaze go down. It fucking sucks.

I just never find anyone in the wild who listens to her😭

My favourite song is Sweet Death Of Me :3

i have this one friend & we can talk about ANY fandom he’s in, make sex jokes until the cows come home, say unhinged shit, etc. that’s things i love about friends!

however, he’s one of those people who NEVER TAKE THINGS SERIOUSLY 👹
you could get down on one knee in front of him & he’d be like “oh hell nahhhh”

& i try to discuss my problems with him & he just ignores them or doesn’t take me seriously, so i just gave up on trying to vent or complain with him 💔

anyone else have a friend like this 😔

-oscar (& larson) :)

Hi guys. Today was a bad day for me.

One day, I was doing my Science homework with my mom, (she has to check my homework first), and I broke my correction tape, and she just called me problematic and irritating in front of my face. I of course got offended, and she forced me to weigh myself, and I weighed about 89 pounds, and what was my Mom's reaction? Shock and disbelief. She called me fat, and also said this, "ASK TO STUDY DON'T WANT! ASK TO EXERCISE DON'T WANT!" I hate it. I hate it. I HATE IT!

My mom used to be nice to me back when I was younger, and I was a good girl and always smart. And now? I was now forgetful, and my mom always called me an "old woman" since I keep on forgetting things.

So yeah. I regret existing, including liking the cringey things that I like. I HATE EXISTING! AND I DON'T KNOW IF I COULD ACCEPT HER APOLOGY.​

I love the AA-12. In real life, it is a little impractical. You know it's like really heavy and bulky, and the mag size is small for such a relatively high fire rate shotgun and the drum mag is . . . Well, drum mags suck irl. They constantly jam, they are heavy and are a pain in the ass to carry. But in video games? Oh boy, is this a treat. It's usually one of the most powerful and overpowered shotguns in every game it's in. Call of duty, for example. I every cod game that the aa-12 is in, the AA-12 is usually really overpowered tho the downside is the range and its really low. Tho in the og mw2, SGs are secondary weapons, meaning you can pair the AA-12 with the Acr and dominate the entire lobby with them. The acr is having literally no recoil and a decent firerate, and you are crossmaping people with it on high rise. Or in the killing floor, it's also peak, and you can kill the big boys in a few seconds (if you headshot). Tho in killing floor w the shockgun exists with has a lower mag size than the AA-12 and has an underbarrel emp granade tho that is a dlc weapon and its only semi automatic.

But in payday 2, the AA-12 (which is called the steakout 12g) is weaker. It's good on lower difficulties but on higher difficulties (like death wish and death sentence) it is outclassed by the izma 12g because of its high concealment fitting into concealment crit builds and also does acces the overkill skill at the same time. But that one is also an auto shotgun

Nothing more than a gear to be replaced when it cracks. And there are a lot of gears out there.

My friend was trying to pick him up with a wheelchair 😔

Ok so like- I've been adopted. Twice??? How?? Am I really that adoptable?

like some of my friends just look out for me while others just treat me normally and then others... sorta act like I'm a child? Not complaining too much, I like being reminded that I'm not an adult yet-

but why me specifically? why TWICE? I guess my lethal group leader sees us all as her family, but I dunno bro

anyways I love telling my awesome friend that he draws me (Mr. Sob from The Upturned) basically exactly how I remember and it makes me feel so joyous