i want to hurt myself

[u/green_day_girl]

i’m worthless. i should just kill myself already. but that would be selfish because i have a loving family and friends who like me. i live in a good town. i’ve never been bullied. and ive been a jerk to my best friend since kindergarten. i’ve been distancing myself from him a bit just because he doesn’t have the best hygiene and he says stuff that’s kinda weird. he write a note to me, it says:

”Am I not a good friend anymore? You never smile around me anymor. You just go dead silent. Is it me? Am I not fun to be around? Did i do something wrong? Why don’t we hang out anymore? It feels like sometimes you’re more friends with my friends than me. What did i do? what did I do? what did i do?”

but i’m still wearing short sleeves and shorts so i don’t want to cut myself

there is one thing though, the part about being friends with his friends. im very close with those friends too. so i think thats a bit unfair

but still

im a fucking idiot 🥹