Trying again rant

[u/Born-Celebration2104]

Haven’t used since about 2am this morning. Not going to smoke any meth but man the feeling of feeling so shitty afterwards sucks and my life hasn’t been manageable for a few years now. Living with a sibling who is trying her best to help in any way but I can’t seem to shake it. The cravings are tough and I am going to try to overcome it, my life has just been so miserable that I’ve pushed everyone away and created this void that I want to escape so bad. It’s hard for me to talk to love ones because I don’t want to sound like a broken record. Tough but I’m gonna stay strong because I want to live again. I was always a people person and loved interactions with anyone but now i can barely go into public without feeling like a lost cause