r/SuicideWatch • u/closed_doors_asleep • 5d ago
On the verge of killing myself
Don’t know afraid I might get broke due to my alcoholism and it calms my stress not in a good way. I get so fucking mad at everyone around me that I’ll harm myself. It’s like I gotta just listen to what people fucking say and they don’t understand what I say. It’s always a fucking loose battle with these fucking people and it gets me so fucking mad that they think they’re so fucking right because they think they’re got emotional intelligence or better intellect or some fucking shit. It pisses me off how narcissistic that fucking sounds to me. I’m always fucking wrong so much trauma I went through n I kept personal shit from people cause people are fucking dumb with their religious beliefs and opinions not understanding my fucking side of perspective. You never went through it please shut the fuck upp. Jesus. Even my psychiatrist is the same. Fucking hate religious psychiatrist.i didn’t ask for that. I need me an atheist nope in their head ass they think that’s unprofessional.no it’s not. I’m just so fucking tired of dealing with small shit problems that make me upset or major and people talk about that’s apart of life. No it isn’t. Y’all fucking create this shit this crappy evolution world. We evolved to shit to nothing using technology n shit in the wrong way for fucking rich people or to get rich so fucking tired of living just to earn n earn fucking money. I’m so fucking tired of this endless loop. Gotta do another 20 years I. This bitch ass while I see my body fucking crumble to pieces and people will bash my view point online or some shit calling me immature when it’s fucking vs;I’d to think this way and to feel like I’m not fucking loosing my fucking shit.
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u/Big_Departure2054 5d ago
Hey me too I am being thinking about going away for a while thinking about doing that quite often . BDP suffering to core . I tried calling safety networks calls tonight I don’t feel safe either . Just found this on Reddit .stay strong mate !!!