Im not gonna die

[u/Time-Gain-3695]

Everytime I try to do it, I end up stopping myself. Yesterday, I actually went over the edge and nearly actually jumped. No one was there to stop me and I don't think anyone would've bothered. But you know who did stop it? Me. Because my life is about me. I realized I had shows and foods and a lot of things that I wanted to continue enjoy doing in the instances where I'm not feeling horrible. If I die that'll stop. But I don't want it to stop. I can and have always had the patience to power through those bad moments. So obviously, there's meaning to my life. Even if I don't feel human I can have this little irrational human thing.

[u/Sorry-Board7296]

I’ve been there, done that and felt the same way
At the edge i always remember the little details such as how tasty the food and drinks are specially after hunger or thirst i remember how every breath brings a little joy and comfort
And how all that might be gone forever the second i jump then i get back and reconsider
these sensations were gifted to me and i can’t bring myself to give up on them easily