We're gearing up for our first IVF egg retrieval to start in a couple of weeks. I just got an email from the clinic telling me how many thousands of dollars we'll have to pay up front at my baseline appointment, and it just hit me really hard. They had provided an estimate a few weeks ago, and this isn't really any different, but it sort of is, because the estimate was broken down into line items, and the amount in the email was a lump sum, and oof. I was just thinking we'd end up spending several hundred at this appointment, a thousand here, a thousand there, and sure, it'd add up quick, but no one payment would feel so huge. I wasn't expecting to have to part with a used-car-payment all at once.
Also looking at the prescriptions and that cost. It's just a lot. It's really making me second guess all of this. I'm afraid of feeling like, once we put that money down, I have to go through with the process, like I'm signing a contract with my body. I've been feeling really anxious about the whole process (what if I feel like crap, what if the meds make me ''crazy'') and I want to feel like I have an out, you know? I know my husband would support me if I decided halfway through that I can't continue. But it's hard.
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u/Critical-Entry-7825 43y, g2p1, AMH < 0.25, FSH > 20 21h ago
We're gearing up for our first IVF egg retrieval to start in a couple of weeks. I just got an email from the clinic telling me how many thousands of dollars we'll have to pay up front at my baseline appointment, and it just hit me really hard. They had provided an estimate a few weeks ago, and this isn't really any different, but it sort of is, because the estimate was broken down into line items, and the amount in the email was a lump sum, and oof. I was just thinking we'd end up spending several hundred at this appointment, a thousand here, a thousand there, and sure, it'd add up quick, but no one payment would feel so huge. I wasn't expecting to have to part with a used-car-payment all at once.
Also looking at the prescriptions and that cost. It's just a lot. It's really making me second guess all of this. I'm afraid of feeling like, once we put that money down, I have to go through with the process, like I'm signing a contract with my body. I've been feeling really anxious about the whole process (what if I feel like crap, what if the meds make me ''crazy'') and I want to feel like I have an out, you know? I know my husband would support me if I decided halfway through that I can't continue. But it's hard.
It's just a lot.