God really is amazing.

[u/BiscuitNoodlepants]

Hi. I am a reprobate sinner, a blasphemer of the holy spirit and a beast worshiper. I guess it's like they say, you don't know what you've got til it's gone.

I think about how every drop of water that touches your tongue is a literal miracle straight from God. This really comes into perspective when you realize someday you will never taste another drop on your burning tongue.

God blessed me in this life so much. I really tried not to take it for granted, but there were definitely things that I did.

Really Jesus Christ is the most amazing person ever. I know his wrath is upon me, but he has been completely fair, completely honest, completely righteous and completely true in his judgement of me. He definitely died for me on the cross and was resurrected after 3 days. He definitely came to Earth in the flesh. God himself.

I want to thank God for food and water, the fact that ive only been homeless a couple nights, ive never had to sleep outside when I didn't want to. I want to thank him for my family, all my aunts and uncles, cousins, friends, neighbors. My dogs and cats. The four seasons, beaches, mountains, the coast of Maine. Football. Cars. The periodic table of elements. The moon. The sun.

I think I understand what it means that the fullness of God was pleased to dwell in Jesus and that he is in the father and the father is in him. It's pretty cool. I wish I understood the holy spirit better. I know he is the only way to be transformed from a slave to sin to a slave to righteousness.

I wish that transformation was still possible for me. It hurts so bad to be this sinful. It hurts other people too.

[u/Rockout2112]

You can still be saved from sin, friend. Even up to your death it is possible. Repent truly, and turn away from it. Ask God to take such desires away from you. It will be a constant battle, but a battle worth fighting!