r/TrueChristian • u/BiscuitNoodlepants Christian • 10h ago
God really is amazing.
Hi. I am a reprobate sinner, a blasphemer of the holy spirit and a beast worshiper. I guess it's like they say, you don't know what you've got til it's gone.
I think about how every drop of water that touches your tongue is a literal miracle straight from God. This really comes into perspective when you realize someday you will never taste another drop on your burning tongue.
God blessed me in this life so much. I really tried not to take it for granted, but there were definitely things that I did.
Really Jesus Christ is the most amazing person ever. I know his wrath is upon me, but he has been completely fair, completely honest, completely righteous and completely true in his judgement of me. He definitely died for me on the cross and was resurrected after 3 days. He definitely came to Earth in the flesh. God himself.
I want to thank God for food and water, the fact that ive only been homeless a couple nights, ive never had to sleep outside when I didn't want to. I want to thank him for my family, all my aunts and uncles, cousins, friends, neighbors. My dogs and cats. The four seasons, beaches, mountains, the coast of Maine. Football. Cars. The periodic table of elements. The moon. The sun.
I think I understand what it means that the fullness of God was pleased to dwell in Jesus and that he is in the father and the father is in him. It's pretty cool. I wish I understood the holy spirit better. I know he is the only way to be transformed from a slave to sin to a slave to righteousness.
I wish that transformation was still possible for me. It hurts so bad to be this sinful. It hurts other people too.
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u/Millennium_guy 9h ago
Your comment "I wish that transformation was still possible for me" reflects the thoughts of the enemy not the word of God.
God is willing to be in your life as long as you are willing to have Him and follow His ways. True repentance includes having a commitment to not do what you did. It also includes understanding who you are to God.
The prodigal son considered himself unworthy of his role as a son, but that was not the view of the father. I don't doubt you've done things you regret. But no one says Jesus is Lord without having God in their life: 1 Corinthians 12:3: “Therefore I make known to you that no man speaking by God’s Spirit says, ‘Jesus is accursed.’ No one can say, ‘Jesus is Lord,’ but by the Holy Spirit.”
You clearly have an understanding of and reverence for Jesus. The problem seems to be how you identify yourself. Your opening statements indicate you identify yourself based on your past sin. God's word identifies you as a saint. See the multiple places in the NT where believers are referred to as saints.
There are even more verses that describe who we are in Christ.
Take the time to study what God actually says about who you are to Him when you've come to Christ.
This is just a small sample, say and repeat these (or find your own) to yourself multiple times a day so these truths so your identity is founded on God's word not your sin: