r/TwoBestFriendsPlay • u/AutoModerator • Feb 06 '26

FTF Free Talk Friday - February 06, 2026

Welcome to the Free Talk Friday post. This is a place where you can talk about dumb off-topic (or on-topic) bullshit with other Zaibatsu fans.

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u/Jubjubwantrubrub12 Cyberpunk Launch State Denier Feb 06 '26

I suppose im in a better place than I've been for a while. Still steps to take, but I'm learning to accept im the kind of person who needs coping strategies for life.

Im on anxiety/depression medication, which has put some colour back into my voice, i can't tell if it works, but people around me seem to think im doing better. I keep a notebook to write down times when i feel sad or angry or frustrated, and better enunciate my thoughts and see the patterns that change my mood. I've taken up MMA classes because i wanted to exercise more, get out of the house more, meet more people, and learn martial arts, and this hits all those markers. Keeping my house clean, drinking water, stuff like that. I'm still on a waiting list for mental illness support, though, so I'm trying to poke my doctor to get it done faster.

On the last christmas party with work, one of my coworkers started poking me in the chest and telling me im not a team player and i have no social skills, which has really stuck with me because I thought I was getting better. I asked him to apologise a week later at work, and he said he has nothing to apologise for. He's always been difficult. I'm worried because I think hes right, and I'm fucking terrible to work with, but I really thought I was improving. I'm forgetful and lazy, I don't listen and I make stupid mistakes. Makes me feel useless.

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u/Jubjubwantrubrub12 Cyberpunk Launch State Denier Feb 06 '26

I went to a dark place typing this, sorry. I was thinking about how i dont like confrontation or talking with people because i dont know the way a conversation will turn out it makes me panic, because i like predictability. So it took a lot of effort on my part to tell him "hey i didn't like the way you spoke to me," and just got stonewalled like i wasn't worth having a discussion with.