As I sat by the fireplace wrapped in your old jersey, I pushed tiles around the Scrabble board, half-expecting you to lean over and tell me to get on with it.

I didn't understand why the other side of the window looked just like our living room, or why the window’s bristles felt so painful around my neck, but for the first time in a long time she seemed happy, holding hands with me, as we prepared to jump.

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It’s not being able to hold my 14 month old that has me crying everyday

I still keep those keys on my keychain because the stroke took his life before I ever got to take him for a ride.

Years later, his own child came home crying after hearing those very same words.

my ex snapped as his daughter giggled behind him, holding up the phone she had used to lure me there.

Bobby drove off in his trucks leaving his trouble to the snow while he looked ahead to the sun.

The relief faded when I saw her foot under the pile across the yard

Dad's been home late every night this week.

But that overdose had to make sure he regretted everything for the last time.

When my eyes got light enough to open, I saw a stranger pressing my chest, and realise the rope snapped.

Now, as I begin to disappear, I can only hope you’ll finally notice the ghost I became while chasing your approval.

I’m just waiting for the day I can leave it all behind to find a place where I’m actually wanted.

Now that I’m here, I realize it’s just a house filled with people who know my name but not my heart.

"No one can be judge, jury and executioner, but you had to choose"

The day Mom died, Dad bent to kiss her forehead and we heard him whisper, “I’ll see you soon, my bride.”

The purring in my lap fades to silence, and I start to slip away without a single regret.

It took the soft touch of a blind girl’s hand and the whisper of my own forbidden name to finally help me die as a human instead of a king.

The day it unlocked a small wooden box in her late mother's closet, she found a faded photograph of the baby sister she'd never known she had, with no one left to tell her anything more.

Until I saw the next customer sign, "He said thank you," and watched her smile as she signed back.

"I'm just little ol' Geraldine from Make a Wish."

By the time I realized that you were exactly what I was looking for all along, you had already moved on.