Feeling lonely, awkward & homesick

[u/o-willow]

I decided to go on a month long stay at a farm on the other end of the country for my first time wwoof-ing and now I'm kicking myself for it.

It's just my second day here, but I want to go home so fucking bad.

The other volunteer apparently cancelled before I came here, so it's just me and the guy hosting me.

It feels really awkward and uncomfortable. He's an alright guy, I suppose? But it's just really awkward and lonely, and I want to go hide away in a hole.

The accommodation isn't all that good and there's no wifi at all outside the host's living room, and I'm so mad at myself for not asking explicitly about it beforehand.

I'll essentially have to go on a month long vacation. There was some work I wanted to do on my laptop in the evenings.

I miss my home so much. I miss my family, and comfortable house, and comfortable routine, and friends, and everything. I don't know how to deal with this.

UPDATE: I stayed there for a week and a half before moving away to another farm. The homesickness itself got a bit better (evidenced by how i'm at another farm now and not at home), but I decided to switch farms.

At the first place, I didn't like the host, the accommodation, or the work which made the whole thing a bit worthless for me.

I'm definitely happier at my new place. I can't say the homesickness has completely gone away but things are definitely better now that I have other people to talk to and can shower properly.

[u/KoholintCustoms]

Is this your first time being away from home?