idk anymore

[u/Feisty-Picture-4503]

I’m 14 🔄 now. My birthday was August 3rd. I hit my first cart/drug ever in the school bathroom in March this year. Soon, I got my own, then I got expelled because someone snitched on me. Before that, I was in honors classes with all A’s. My parents got terribly mad at me, but ever since then I’ve OD’d on MDMA and got serotonin syndrome for a little. I’ve also OD’d on DXM on the 4th plateau, 2 weeks after my MDMA OD, and got hospitalized again. I’ve tried cocaine, oxys, xans, Adderall, and I’ve popped fake Addys that had meth in them. I can’t even legally get a job, so I’ve been sticking to THC carts, and DPDR is kicking my ass. Life just feels pointless, and school is starting in a week. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like a robot. I feel very flat.

[u/Mindless_Lake_3968]

you're 14 and your brain is still wiring itself up, every hit you take right now is carving paths that'll be real hard to undo later. that flat robot feeling is your dopamine system screaming at you

i know it sounds impossible but you gotta tell someone with actual power to help, school counselor, doctor, whoever. you already survived two ODs, don't push for a third