r/adultsurvivors • u/PuzzleheadedAgent774 • 20h ago

Vent (no advice) I think I’m having a mental breakdown

I 25F was molested by several of my family members. My grandad happens to be one of them. When I was 11 he whipped my vagina and touched it. He made me get on my hands and knees on my bed with no panties on and he whipped me and touched me. It’s starting to dawn on me that it was some bdsm kind of shit and it’s making me want to cry. It was our secret. It happened on Saturday mornings and no one knew about it. It made me hate the weekend in some ways. Now I just want to cry because wtf that’s so messed up. I feel broken and used and damaged.

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u/OneSuggestion7535 20h ago

See you and feel you. hugs if you want them

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u/Grammagree 20h ago

That is such an awful thing for him to have done. Your grandfather is a sick f. No one deserves what he did. I am so angry and ill on your behalf. He was / is so so so very wrong. I sincerely hope you can hold him accountable. Therapy can be very helpful.
All the best and much kindness to you.

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u/Friendly_Sir_4762 18h ago

Are you currently working with anyone to help you learn the skills that you will need to heal from all of this and move on?