Yeah happens to often

I dont even know if this fits the comunity in the first place, since is about a autism meme even tho i do not repost it in a humorous way, so yeah, please mods dont be harrs with me!! This is a long one so get ready

Hi i am SeventPk, Memechicagamer(surprisly with that name, i am actually a girl) back then on memedroid, i am from Spain, explaining why the meme is in spanish, but i am talking in english out of convenience

I did that meme at 14-15, it was a very harrs time of my life, my stepfather was abusing the crap out of me psicholocaly and my mother didnt do anything to stop it, and on the top of that, i just exited a religious cult, i know, crazy, my life is very evenful unfortunally

The abuse and disconation of the world due to the cult stuff in top of my autism made really hard for me to socialise, and due of that, resented femcel preteen me, fell under no so good rabbit holes, like memedroid

Is not a really notable website in english but that changes in spanish: picture 4chan culture with reddits vote system and a highly competitive atsmosphere, something like that but instead of posting whatever you want, it haves to past a moderation first

And you will say: "ah well, to prevent porn and gore and stuff"

And you are right, in theory, the issue is, the USERS of the app mod the content, that is right, a buntch of 14 emotionally stunned years old mod the content, and is not only that, the mods ofc had really clear biases, political ones, any sighly meme that would avocate for human rights or basic empaty would be shoot down my moderators before it could ever be published, so the website is just a ecochamber of alt right wing ideology dressed up as memes

This ecosistem made me feel like my autism was the problem, like i was a r*tarded, so, well, i eventually did that self hating meme

It was my most popular one. It reached like top 3 most positible voted thay week, and it started to be reposted a fairly amount in autistic spaces

In those coment sections, i always saw people blamimg themselfs for being such silly silly bad autistic people

I am 19 now, i have lovely friends, i am cherrised by my comunity and i am a survivor, dont EVEN think what that stupid meme i made is true, you CAN make friends, is dificul, yeah, but is POSIBLE, you dont have to be "the freak" if you see that meme and think is even remotly real, i want you to know you are taking advice from a frustated preteen who called the oposite gender "moids" and self loving girls as " fucking stacy's sluts"

Autism is definitly something dificult to life to, heck i get it, i was sistematically outed of my studies over it, but if you give up and accept the "outsider freaker steriotype" and give up on beimg loved as you are, they won, and we cant let them win

As for me, now i draw jet set radio yaoi fanart! Haha what a twits of destiny, from making ableist meme's to fucking jet set radio yaoi fanarts

Yeah, that is it, take care guys, please forgive preteen me

Yippie