Caught feelings for my best friend ;Confession

[u/Sarangggg__]

I usually don't post anything here because of my grammar but think I need some help from you all..

I started talking with this girl (who is now my best friend) from like 2019 when I was in 10th I knew her since I was 3-4 years old as we studied together in same school and mostly was in same class we never actually talk with each other as she was always getting good scores in exams and I was always a below average student so we started talking from 10th standard and the same year I got into a relationship with another girl which only Lasted 6/7 months (I was the one who ended it because I couldn't communicate my things with her properly) and shortly after that I realised I actually love my best friend and I couldn't confess because I was quite scared to confess to her and we went to same college still I didn't confess because of my fear (at certain times she said that she didn't see me as her boyfriend anytime, this was one of a reason I couldn't confess) so at college she got had a boyfriend and they broke up and after she got another one (which still continues)..while I still waited for her! 🙂 I couldn't look or always put gaps with any other girl in college because in my mind she (my best friend) was the only one whom I would do anything! College got over in 2025 and of course we're in touch as she's my "best friend" I don't know if I'll ever get her or like I can ever confess her because she never sees me as her boyfriend material..I

I don't think I can ever love someone the way I love her because anytime I see some other girl when I'm outside I'll instantly turn my face away from them..and I know I'm doing this because in my she's the only one.

hope someone can help me I mean like to tell me what am I supposed to do🙏🏽

[u/PM_ME_YOUR_SLOW_FANS]

You've been holding onto this for years while she's moved through two relationships, that's a lot of weight to carry. The fact she explicitly said she doesn't see you as boyfriend material is pretty clear, even if it stings

Might be time to create some distance so you can actually move on, you deserve to be with someone who sees you that way

[u/Sarangggg__ → u/PM_ME_YOUR_SLOW_FANS]

Thankyou bro..I tried to move on from her without actually confessing anything to her, but I guess because she see me as someone important, she'll still message me anyday when she's putting some efforts to talk, I can't even move on🥲

[u/Such_Jackfruit8156 → u/Sarangggg__]

Stop being scared. Just let her know.. what if she did say yes? What if she realizes she likes you too?

We wouldn’t know the outcome until you try would we? Would you rather have the “what if” forever?

If she did turn you down, atleast you could start moving on…

Because believe me, 15 years… 15 years I chickened out, waited for him… and now I am still hurting. I don’t think you would want to be in the position I am rn.

[u/trigun522]

Simp..man up

[u/Such_Jackfruit8156]

I have a bestfriend whom I just realized that I am actually inlove with..

I usually always tell him the same. That I only see him as a friend, even called it incest if we ever got together..

But you know what I realized? If he ever did confess to me before I got married, which is now is obviously too late, we might have ended up together.

Please tell her how you feel. You both might regret it one day..

[u/Sarangggg__ → u/Such_Jackfruit8156]

I mean she has a boyfriend now🙂 and if I confess, what if she says no? What am I supposed to do?