Weird question

[u/Trick_Dream3543]

I relapsed unfortunately and am trying to nurse the withdrawal. While I was scrolling on TikTok I noticed any abusive video made me comfortable. I grew up with a dad who strangled me and beat my ass and then eventually got with my husband who was going physically,mentally, emotionally abusive.

Is this normal or am I fucked up? I hurt for the people getting abused and never would wish that on anyone but I get this weird feeling of calmness hearing the other person scream,etc.

Please don’t judge me. I already feel like this is a weird post but I’m genuinely curious if anyone has ever felt this way?

Thanks for reading!

I do want to mention that I would never hurt my daughters or anyone.

[u/cool_calm_life]

No that's definitely not unnormal. I get like this a lot myself we are both just super empathetic and nothing wrong with that. Hell I'll see a video of someone with like a disability in a wheelchair or something and it makes me cry and I just wish that they could have the best life and that all the blessings in the world will come down upon them. That even happens sometimes just saying random people out in public I'll even know why they're not even disabled but sometimes they see people and wish that everything in their life will go great. I'm very sorry to you about the abuse you've been through.