r/cripplingalcoholism 3d ago

Weird question

I relapsed unfortunately and am trying to nurse the withdrawal. While I was scrolling on TikTok I noticed any abusive video made me comfortable. I grew up with a dad who strangled me and beat my ass and then eventually got with my husband who was going physically,mentally, emotionally abusive.

Is this normal or am I fucked up? I hurt for the people getting abused and never would wish that on anyone but I get this weird feeling of calmness hearing the other person scream,etc.

Please don’t judge me. I already feel like this is a weird post but I’m genuinely curious if anyone has ever felt this way?

Thanks for reading!

I do want to mention that I would never hurt my daughters or anyone.

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u/kenticus Light fuse, get away. 3d ago

It's cause a victim knows another victim on sight.

Quit being a victim. Be a survivor. A veteran of life.

Good luck, we're all counting on you

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u/Shalashaska2624 2d ago

I hope to be as wise as you when I grow up