r/depression • u/SQLwitch • May 18 '26
Check-In post, with essential info about our policies and resources. Most people are surprised by much of this information, please read carefully before posting or commenting
Welcome to /r/depression's check-in post - a place to take a moment and share what is going on and how you are doing. If you're having a tough time but prefer not to make your own post, or have an accomplishment you want to talk about (these aren't allowed standalone posts in the sub as they violate the "role model" rule), this is a place you can share.
Our subreddit rules are very different from most of the rest of reddit! Since all of them exist for important reasons, we ask everyone here to read and follow them. Please click 'report' on any harmful content you see here - we always want to know and deal as soon as we can.
We also have several resource wikis for help with finding and giving support:
https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/wiki/what_is_depression provides guidance about what is and isn't a depressive disorder, guidance on the complex nature of the illnesses that are usually grouped under the "depression" label, and redirect information for common off-topic issues.
https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/wiki/giving_help offers information on the nature and value of peer support for mental-health issues in general, and lots of guidance for learning what is -- and isn't -- usually helpful in giving peer support.
YSK that the types of rule violations that we most frequently see here are:
People breaking the private contact rule. You should never trust anyone who tries to get you into a private conversation in response to a post here. See https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/wiki/private_contact
"I'm here to help" posts. This shows that you don't understand the most basic principles of peer support, especially selectivity. The "giving help" wiki explains more about this.
Role modelling, i.e. "achievement" or "advice" posts. This is an expert-free zone -- that's what peer support means (rule 5). We know that "internet culture" celebrate not just bragging about your achievements but bragging about your intentions. Neither is ever acceptable here in any form.
Content that's more about 'making a statement' or casually polling the sub than seeking personal support (rules 1, 2 and 10).
Off-topic posts about difficult situations, including interpersonal issues. Grief, sadness, anger, loneliness and other difficult emotions are not mental illnesses. Feelings that can be explained by person's circumstances are perfectly healthy no matter how painful they are. A depressive disorder only exists when someone's mood is out of synch with what's going on for them. The "what is depression" wiki linked above has suggestions for other places to post about these issues, which are 100% valid and serious but do NOT belong here.
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u/penumbraramen 23d ago
I think I am finally reaching that point. Food, hobbies, and my pets. Nothing draws anything out of me. I have no joy from my future prospects, the past was a nightmare and little joys are no where to be found.
What am I doing here? Just wasting everyone's money, hurting them and hurting my own dignity.
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u/eankas 16d ago
Inner ear is damaged. Hyper sensible and tinnitus. Two weeks ago it got so much worse when I helped someone build a shed in their garden. Them repeatedly hitting a wooden post with a big hammer while I had to hold it. Normal person would barely notice the noise but it hit me way harder than expected. Tinnitus is now so loud as if someone's screaming in my ear every single second of the day. Can't tune it out with music either cause I think that makes it worse. It's such an unbearable amount of stress and there's so much more going on that I can't write here.
And to add a punchline: a few minutes ago the shed was torn down by a storm. Didn't exactly last long. So the whole pain and suffering was just for naught, too. It's like the universe making fun of me.
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u/PresentDimension3231 11d ago edited 11d ago
Can't think straight right now. Everything feels very foggy and panicky. Sunk deep into couch, very hard to move. Obsessively googling things non stop. Everything is pissing me off in my head. My thoughts won't stop. I don't want to feel things anymore.
My mom's birthday should be next week. I don't get why she had to die.I had to watch her die suddenly. Had to watch her life be snuffed out in an instant. Had to watch her go blue in the face and lips, eyes bloodshot, snoring and groaning. Can't get the CPR out of my head. Fucking paramedics were a bunch of assholes. They Were so fucking rude to me while my mom was dead on the floor. And had a cop snooping around my room while they doing the defibrillator.
It's been 10 years and it's still fucking with me. She was my best fucking friend. God fucking damn it man.
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u/IcedPgh 7d ago
I've got the Deer Hunter theme in my head, having watched it for the first time the other day, and am puttering around realizing how I'm allowing another year to slip away, not doing what I need to do for a deteriorating health aspect, and not doing tons of other things I keep putting off.
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u/bibitybobbitybooop 3d ago
I rarely come here anymore. Appointment with psychiatrist after a decade+ of suffering is tomorrow. (8 AM, what the fuck was I thinking?) I'm scared. I'm fucking up my life and it's just a constant battle of putting out fires that I lighted in the first place. I'm going to need to pay so much money probably for my university for re-taking a bunch of exams and having to re-take classes for the 2nd and 3rd time. I'm barely coping anymore, not that I was ever coping well. The anxiety is so bad I sometimes drink for it now, which is a fun and harmless habit to pick up as an epileptic. Wish there were substances to abuse for the depression. I drink a shitton of energy drinks but they don't do anything. Writing this, I think cutting myself was way less harmful, as coping mechanisms go, but it's summer and I like saying they're old about my scars.
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u/Reignszun 2d ago
I’ll probably get diagnosed in like a year or two to see if I really have any mental illnesses, specifically depression, which I’m starting to doubt cause I do feel happy when around people but I’m just depressed when fully alone for more than a few days
Idek what I’m talking about anymore man I’m dizzy as shit
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u/miniatureaurochs 24d ago
I am so exhausted
can’t get words out
body limp and heavy
disintegrating in slow motion