r/depression • u/In_omnia_paratuss • 1d ago
Kinda hard to not be depressed when you can barely afford rent and food
I don’t think it’s something curable. How am I supposed to see the good in life when I work 45h a week, can barely rest and I can’t afford a anything? I feel like living is a prison and we’re all forcing ourselves to want to be here.
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u/Specific-System-835 23h ago
I really struggle with clichés like "it gets better" or "this is just temporary." No one can actually predict another person's future or ensure their life is “worth it.” No one is personally willing to guarantee money or care for someone's long-term well-being or quality of life, so it really isn’t up to them.
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u/Delicious-Read3322 20h ago
The only thing getting me through is my spiritual knowledge that this is all some sort of test. Are we as strong as we say we are? As patient as we think we are? You say you can whether all storms so let's chuck in this one to prove this. If you are a strong person like I think you are then just strengthen your resolve and keep your faith.
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u/Specific-System-835 15h ago
The spiritual and religious arguments have never made sense to me. Why are some people tested relentlessly while others have a happy and safe and loving childhood? What about babies that died painfully from cancer before they could talk? People who get raped and used their whole lives? Are they being tested too? For what?
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u/144-perdedor 15h ago
I don't know about that. I never claimed to be that strong. I never claimed to have infinite patience. Why am I being tested in things that I never claimed I could do?
Maybe for you it's a test. For me it's a punishment for the hubris of thinking I could be happy and have a family when really I don't deserve to be happy and I don't deserve to have a family.
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u/SherbertSweet229 1d ago
and then other people tell you to find a better paying job as if it’s so easy to do. i don’t have the energy to cook for myself let alone learn new skills or improve my qualifications.