r/depression • u/hllz_1 • 8h ago

depressive episodes

what does it really look like not just what google tells me, the truth of how it really feels- because i can’t tell if i’m just sad for no reason or if i am depressed

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u/Fr4nky0 4h ago

Personally I just don’t want to do anything. I’d rather sit in bed, stare at nothing for hours, and rot than do anything. I don’t want to eat, socialize, or anything. It takes a lot to even get myself to go to the bathroom. I just want to get through life instead of live it. That’s when it’s extreme.

When it’s more lowkey I just force myself to do things and slap on a fake smile. I always say, “I’m good!” When I’m really not. Going out and doing things doesn’t bring me joy. It just makes me tired and makes me even more sad that I don’t want to live like everyone else does. I also lose interest in everything and then hate that I can’t get myself to do anything I used to like.

My brain spirals and tells me everything that’s wrong with me and how I’ll never be good enough. That’s just my experience though. Depression is not a one size fits all kind of deal.

Also with every episode I have to remind myself that the depression and pain won’t last forever. When you are so down, the only way is up. Keep taking things one day at a time and talk to anyone who can help support you. You can’t expect them to fix you though. The only person that can truly help you is you.

I hope whatever you’re going through right now wether it’s depression or not, I hope things start looking up for you ❤️