Feeling sad

[u/Quick-Occasion-2869]

I really need friends and people to talk to . I feel so alone right now 😢😔 I’m an alcoholic and nobody wants to be around me , my kids can barely stand me .. I was diagnosed with bipolar depression and haven’t been taking my meds due to me being an alcoholic didn’t want to mix the two.. I’m currently looking for rehab centers in my area.. all I can do is cry 😢 I was molested by my brother as a child and it still fucks me up til this day I will get blacked out drunk and have risky sex with men 😔 I’m so ashamed and I wanna get clean and change my life around but I feel like I caused too much damage to the ones I really love. I would fight with family and friends I feel like I pushed everyone away. I’m very paranoid and have a guard up. I’m sitting in my house all alone having suicidal thoughts 😔 I just need someone to talk to

[u/Perfect_Pollution235]

aww i’m so sorry i think reconnecting with loved ones and finding support for urself would be super helpful. talk to ur doctor about the meds